This is so weird. Yet again, Rivka Levy has written about what I have been going through over the past couple of years with either mentors or "friends," not realizing that they disdained me for exactly the reasons mentioned. And I also blamed myself. I also don't think it is a coincidence that Hashem started ripping the blindfolds off my eyes not long after I started doing hitbodedut regularly. Connecting to Hashem in this way has been incredible. On one hand, problems I considered unsolvable were either solved or greatly alleviated — and I still can't explain exactly how. On the other hand, many relationships gradually disintegrated (or exploded). They were unhealthy to begin with, but I didn't realize how I was being slowly poisoned. I always hated how emotionally dependent I was on others and always envied those who seemed so emotionally independent. And suddenly, I was becoming independent, too! I honestly never thought it could happen. In the relationships I have left, I changed in that I naturally became much more of a listener than a talker. Like the article states, I very much feel that the world is polarizing. The very people who slowly poisoned me were mostly on auto-pilot and not so intentionally nasty. I honestly don't think they realized their damage; such behavior just felt "right" to them. But I think that if those same people would start following the principles and practices laid out in Garden of Emuna, they would blossom because they do have some really good qualities. I think they could potentially be really wonderful — if they would ever make a sincere effort in that direction. Thanks for yet another "touche" article, Rivka.
2. Dassie
12/17/2014
This is so weird. Yet again, Rivka Levy has written about what I have been going through over the past couple of years with either mentors or "friends," not realizing that they disdained me for exactly the reasons mentioned. And I also blamed myself. I also don't think it is a coincidence that Hashem started ripping the blindfolds off my eyes not long after I started doing hitbodedut regularly. Connecting to Hashem in this way has been incredible. On one hand, problems I considered unsolvable were either solved or greatly alleviated — and I still can't explain exactly how. On the other hand, many relationships gradually disintegrated (or exploded). They were unhealthy to begin with, but I didn't realize how I was being slowly poisoned. I always hated how emotionally dependent I was on others and always envied those who seemed so emotionally independent. And suddenly, I was becoming independent, too! I honestly never thought it could happen. In the relationships I have left, I changed in that I naturally became much more of a listener than a talker. Like the article states, I very much feel that the world is polarizing. The very people who slowly poisoned me were mostly on auto-pilot and not so intentionally nasty. I honestly don't think they realized their damage; such behavior just felt "right" to them. But I think that if those same people would start following the principles and practices laid out in Garden of Emuna, they would blossom because they do have some really good qualities. I think they could potentially be really wonderful — if they would ever make a sincere effort in that direction. Thanks for yet another "touche" article, Rivka.
12/17/2014
Right on target
This is so weird. Yet again, Rivka Levy has written about what I have been going through over the past couple of years with either mentors or "friends," not realizing that they disdained me for exactly the reasons mentioned. And I also blamed myself. I also don't think it is a coincidence that Hashem started ripping the blindfolds off my eyes not long after I started doing hitbodedut regularly. Connecting to Hashem in this way has been incredible. On one hand, problems I considered unsolvable were either solved or greatly alleviated — and I still can't explain exactly how. On the other hand, many relationships gradually disintegrated (or exploded). They were unhealthy to begin with, but I didn't realize how I was being slowly poisoned. I always hated how emotionally dependent I was on others and always envied those who seemed so emotionally independent. And suddenly, I was becoming independent, too! I honestly never thought it could happen. In the relationships I have left, I changed in that I naturally became much more of a listener than a talker. Like the article states, I very much feel that the world is polarizing. The very people who slowly poisoned me were mostly on auto-pilot and not so intentionally nasty. I honestly don't think they realized their damage; such behavior just felt "right" to them. But I think that if those same people would start following the principles and practices laid out in Garden of Emuna, they would blossom because they do have some really good qualities. I think they could potentially be really wonderful — if they would ever make a sincere effort in that direction. Thanks for yet another "touche" article, Rivka.
12/17/2014
This is so weird. Yet again, Rivka Levy has written about what I have been going through over the past couple of years with either mentors or "friends," not realizing that they disdained me for exactly the reasons mentioned. And I also blamed myself. I also don't think it is a coincidence that Hashem started ripping the blindfolds off my eyes not long after I started doing hitbodedut regularly. Connecting to Hashem in this way has been incredible. On one hand, problems I considered unsolvable were either solved or greatly alleviated — and I still can't explain exactly how. On the other hand, many relationships gradually disintegrated (or exploded). They were unhealthy to begin with, but I didn't realize how I was being slowly poisoned. I always hated how emotionally dependent I was on others and always envied those who seemed so emotionally independent. And suddenly, I was becoming independent, too! I honestly never thought it could happen. In the relationships I have left, I changed in that I naturally became much more of a listener than a talker. Like the article states, I very much feel that the world is polarizing. The very people who slowly poisoned me were mostly on auto-pilot and not so intentionally nasty. I honestly don't think they realized their damage; such behavior just felt "right" to them. But I think that if those same people would start following the principles and practices laid out in Garden of Emuna, they would blossom because they do have some really good qualities. I think they could potentially be really wonderful — if they would ever make a sincere effort in that direction. Thanks for yet another "touche" article, Rivka.