Touche! You have no idea how much this parallels my own journey! There is tremendous inner and outer pressure to be whatever our particular society defines as "normal," yet oftentimes, "normal" is not at all what Hashem intended us to be! Queen Esther always seemed like such an inner-focused spiritual person; it was probably horrifying beyond belief to find herself thrust into the position of national savior and married to an occultic, Jew-hating shikutz for the rest of her life — okay, particularly with regard to the latter. I'm sure she just wanted to raise a large family and do hitbodedut all the time. But it obviously wasn't what Hashem created her for. We see a similar situation with Yonah HaNavi. It is all a real struggle.
2. Dassie
9/16/2014
You have no idea how much this parallels my own journey! There is tremendous inner and outer pressure to be whatever our particular society defines as "normal," yet oftentimes, "normal" is not at all what Hashem intended us to be! Queen Esther always seemed like such an inner-focused spiritual person; it was probably horrifying beyond belief to find herself thrust into the position of national savior and married to an occultic, Jew-hating shikutz for the rest of her life — okay, particularly with regard to the latter. I'm sure she just wanted to raise a large family and do hitbodedut all the time. But it obviously wasn't what Hashem created her for. We see a similar situation with Yonah HaNavi. It is all a real struggle.
9/16/2014
Touche! You have no idea how much this parallels my own journey! There is tremendous inner and outer pressure to be whatever our particular society defines as "normal," yet oftentimes, "normal" is not at all what Hashem intended us to be! Queen Esther always seemed like such an inner-focused spiritual person; it was probably horrifying beyond belief to find herself thrust into the position of national savior and married to an occultic, Jew-hating shikutz for the rest of her life — okay, particularly with regard to the latter. I'm sure she just wanted to raise a large family and do hitbodedut all the time. But it obviously wasn't what Hashem created her for. We see a similar situation with Yonah HaNavi. It is all a real struggle.
9/16/2014
You have no idea how much this parallels my own journey! There is tremendous inner and outer pressure to be whatever our particular society defines as "normal," yet oftentimes, "normal" is not at all what Hashem intended us to be! Queen Esther always seemed like such an inner-focused spiritual person; it was probably horrifying beyond belief to find herself thrust into the position of national savior and married to an occultic, Jew-hating shikutz for the rest of her life — okay, particularly with regard to the latter. I'm sure she just wanted to raise a large family and do hitbodedut all the time. But it obviously wasn't what Hashem created her for. We see a similar situation with Yonah HaNavi. It is all a real struggle.